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my reaction to every episode of Elementary: WHERE IS THE TURTLE


my reaction to every episode of Elementary: WHERE IS THE TURTLE

Having ow of those shitty days where everything hurts and nothing I do happens properly and I should probably just curl up and eat a kilo of chocolate because fuckall else is getting done between now and when I go to sleep.


So apparently a lot of serial transmisogynists are slandering Laverne Cox for supporting Synthia China Blast, an incarcerated trans woman who has been working with the Sylvia Rivera Law Project on initiatives to end prison rape. Given that the people who have been spreading this shit have been routinely misgendering both Laverne Cox and Synthia China Blast and have been spreading blatant misinformation about Synthia that should be raising plenty of alarm bells for people but evidently given an incarcerated trans woman of color the benefit of the doubt and investigating her background is a lot more difficult than spreading commentators who consistently call trans women “male.”

(TW for rape, murder, death, transmisogyny, racism, pedophilia/csa and a whole bunch of other stuff).

This New York magazine article (tw: for rape, murder, death, sexual content, drug mention, t-slur, pedophilia/csa, etc. in the article) is a feature on Synthia China Blast and her husband Eddie Seda, whom she met in prison. Page 4 covers the background behind Synthia’s incarceration. To quote from the article (emphasis mine):

Synthia says she started to dress in “drags” on the sly and spent her time at Escuelita, a Manhattan gay club she’d discovered. Then, in August 1993, she says someone from the gang paged her and told her to report immediately: “I had to take off my makeup, pick up my van, and go clean up an apartment in the Bronx.” In her haste, she left her skirt on.

But when her mother heard that the police were looking for her, she persuaded Synthia to turn herself in.

During the trial, witnesses testified that Synthia and Carlos Franco, another Latin King member, committed the murder. They also claimed that Synthia had raped the girl, until one person let it slip that she had been wearing a skirt that night.They had to switch their story in the trial because how do you tell the jury that he had on a dress and then he was raping a girl?” Synthia says. “I’ve never had sex with a female in my life.”

Like, look at the situation: the witness who testified against her changed their story mid-trial. As such Synthia was never convicted of rape. I repeat, Synthia was never convicted of rape and the person who alleged that she had committed rape changed their story mid trial. Yet people are repeating the blatant lie that Synthia China Blast is a pedophiliac, necrophiliac rapist in an effort to defame her and Laverne Cox. Synthia was seen wearing a skirt by the alleged witness, how is it not completely obvious that the allegations of rape (which, again, vanished mid-trial) were an attempt to leverage transmisogyny to punish this woman as fully as possible? This is exactly the same trick of cisheteropatriarchal ideology used to paint cis queer people as perverse, hypersexed, dangerous murderers. Patriarchy takes the violence committed by men and projects it on to women, particularly lesbians and trans women. The fact that people will notice that the “violent lesbian” trope is lesbophobic but will ignore the fact that the same sleight of hand is being performed with the “violent trans woman” trope just evinces how deeply engrained transmisogyny is. And this is intensely magnified by white supremacy and the fact that both Synthia China Blast and the woman advocating for her are women of color. When you consider that the State loves to throw people of color into jail on trumped up charges, it may occur to you that Synthia is innocent of the murder of which she was convicted, as she has said! She is a woman who has been abused and incarcerated because of institutional racism and transmisogyny.

The reason feminism has always placed such an emphasis on believing accusations of rape and sexual assault is because rape culture systemically silences women who are raped by men. The reason women can be silenced like this is because of the structural power imbalance between men and women and men’s misogynistic oppression of women. In these instances, feminism says to listen to the person who suffers from oppression and cannot leverage structural power against he whom she accuses. Believing the lies about Synthia China Blast is not a fulfillment of this feminist tenant, it is an abuse of it. Synthia China Blast and Lavern Cox are trans women of color. The TWEFs running character assassination here are largely cis white people. TWOC are structurally oppressed by transmisogyny/cissexism and white supremacy/racism, both of which cis white people structurally benefit from. So when you believe and spread some sensationalist shit about Synthia China Blast being a murderous necrophiliac rapist and Laverne Cox being pro-rape culture you are perpetuating and enacting transmisogyny, racism, transmisogynoir, white supremacy and cissexism. When someone with structural privilege is leveraging rape accusations against a racialized trans woman like this, that is an act of violence predicated on the fact that in white supremacist, patriarchal fantasy trans women of color are already always guilty of being perverse and violent. That is transmisogyny and white supremacy in action.

A function of patriarchy is that it places the violence of men on trans women, and then uses the illusion of “violent trans women” to justify the violence against trans women. A function of white supremacy is that it places the violence of white people on to people of color, and then uses the illusion of the “violent POC” to justify violence against POC. These ideological functions compact and intensify in the case of trans women of color, so before you go spreading shit about a twoc who was raped at least twice in prison (tw: rape in that link obviously) and who has been placed in isolation “for her safety” to the detriment of her mental and physical health for a decade (this link contains a petition you can sign to help trans prisoners fyi) maybe consider the way power is operating when a bunch of white cis transmisogynists who insist on misgendering the victims of their bilious ire spread a lot of unfounded, sensational bullshit. They are trying to destroy a woman who is a rape survivor, who is stuck in a men’s prison without access to adequate treatment for her gender dysphoria, and the black woman who was brave enough to advocate for her when no one else would pay her any mind because structural transmisogyny and racism are things. Seriously, if routine transmisogynists are repeating lies and misgendering their targets, maybe it’s not about stoping rape culture, maybe it’s about perpetuating transmisogyny and white supremacy against two women they have immense structural power over.

For all of those confused about the Anaconda song, here’s what I found


"Okay no, calm yourselves down, watch the music video then come back to me. First off, yes this song is about sex appeal, and yea its a very sexually explicit song, we can deduce early on anaconda is referring to a man’s penis. Second on is the overall repeating concept of her buns, her butt, her ass being her only memorable feature. But stop, wait a minute and actually listen to the lyrics.

She’s taking the sex appeal that she has, the way the world objectifies her, and using it as a superpower. All those images with her shaking her ass, its bait, its a distraction, and then listen to what’s she’s saying. She’s using it to overpower men, traditionally men who would be considered terrifying, drug dealers and mobsters and she’s using them. Watch that bit in the kitchen, she’s in a kitchen because a woman is supposed to be in a kitchen right, but look how staged it is, look at how she’s spraying cream all over herself, yes its a sexual display, its a common powerplay used in porn to degrade the woman. And she’s using it to tantalize, to tease, and then it cuts back to her eating a banana also a tease, and what does she do? She breaks the banana, she chops it up, throws it away. Makes a face like she knows its all an act, an act YOU fell for. 

Go then to that scene with drake, drake a powerful man and he’s helpless, he’s stuck in that chair unable to touch her while she teases him, uses him, and he’s not allowed to put a finger on her because SHE says so. 

This is some crazy shit dark feminist powerplay here. And the best part? ITS SO SUBTLE. Everyone’s mad about it and they don’t know why. Think carefully to how its constructed, how its meant to feed the media. Its supposed to be shallow. until you read into what is being said, not just the lyrics, bu the entire video. its a fucking power trip and hey you men who’s feeling angry, and confused, and want her to be put down. Think about why that is. Is it because you feel small? Is it because you feel like an object? Like something to be used? Congratulations. That’s EXACTLY what this video is supposed to do. And its glorious.”


I don’t want happy weddings I don’t want companies sticking little rainbows on stuff I don’t want allies flooding the streets at Pride for ‘support’

I want homes and clothes and hormones and medical care and education and legal protection and access to shared history and community and safety and respect for ALL my LGBT+ siblings.

this is so important.


So I’ve decided that my selfies and body pictures ARE a direct response to my body dysphoria. They are are like a visual fuck you to myself. A kick up my own arse. I can inspect these images and observe the changes and pinpoint the varying locations of my shifting dysphoric reaction. Close up I can control some aspects but I’m moving towards full body images and that will add further dimensions to understand and own.. Height issues and weight issues will start to interplay with my gender dysphoria. What fun.


the police in ferguson are gonna drag this out as long as possible because they’re smart enough to know that the longer it drags on, the less the media will cover it, the less people will care, and the less they have to be responsible for. they don’t want the conflict to end because if it ended now, there might still be some accountability demanded. they know if they can make it drag on for another week or more, that every day it continues they’re less and less likely to receive any punishment for human rights violations because public interest will continue to drop. they’re tiring out and exhausting any defiance or anger.




do you ever get in those moods where you don’t feel like reading and you don’t feel like being on the internet and you don’t feel like watching a show and you don’t feel like sleeping and you don’t feel like existing in general


It’s in words

whoever said money can’t buy happiness obviously wasn’t trans


Love it! So true!

Darren Wilson’s “blowout fracture”


If you’ve been keeping up with what the media is saying about Darren Wilson, you may have read this article that claims he suffered a blowout fracture: a fracture of one or more bones surrounding the eye. Here is a screencap from the article of “Darren Wilson’s” CT scan. Also known as “lol_bc_not_darren_wilson.jpg”


When the article later stated that “police sources” said 12 witnesses had taken Wilson’s side, I was incredible skeptical, obviously.

[I also want to mention that this article is using pictures of the convenience store where the owner’s lawyer blatantly stated that Mike Brown did not steal anything.]

This article lists the side effects of an orbital blowout fracture. It also posts a video taken by Piaget Crenshaw, a woman who lives on the street where Mike Brown was killed. The video shows Darren Wilson standing around Mike’s body soon after his murder, showing no signs of pain; and you see the officer he’s reporting to acting like Wilson hasn’t been injured at all. That isn’t very likely for someone who would have visible signs of trauma. 

The second article also shows “Darren’s” CT scan, and one that looks exactly like it, but: in the corner it says UNIV OF IOWA ETC-TC. Just to check up on this, I looked up the words “university of iowa blowout fracture” and set Google to where it would show posts from before this year, guess what.

On, this CT scan was on a page made in 2008[It’s about all kinds of eye trauma.] Here’s a screencap with the url in it so you can see what I’m talking about, if you don’t want to scroll through a page with graphic injuries.


I don’t know why they thought they could get away with this at all, oh my god. The article that says Darren Wilson was injured is a complete fallacy, and the police released this information to make Mike Brown seem like a “thug.”

(“There’s no more racism in America! We have a black President!”)

Now listen to me. If an article does not post credible sources (“two local St. Louis sources” does not count at all) or only goes off what the police is saying: double, triple, quadruple check it before you share the information, just to cause less hysteria for everyone trying to stay updated on these horrific events.